just that kind of a day. gray.

i'll be first to admit. i'm cheating with the picture. it wasn't really taken today. astrida took it a few days ago, but i really like it. love it. so i thought i'll post it anyway. hope you all like it!

i had a little argument today about the weather (strange - the things one argues about!) and it made me think about this so called "chill factor", the "feels like" temperature, the "wind factor"... it's really a joke, you know! how do you measure what the temperature 'fells like'??? it might feel like -20 on the street, but more like -15 in my back yard. how do you prove these things? where do they measure the 'feels like' temperatures? is there the official 'feels like' temperature spot in the city? today it was -5 degrees out. on the weather network site they posted 'feels like -20' in bold lettering. is it just canada or do they use these antics elsewhere in the world? is it scare tactics, so that less people would go outside? or is it just for city people, so that they don't under dress, when they go out in the mornings? maybe it's a US invented tactic for canadians (who live so far in the north! practically near the north pole... ) so that we can brag to the relatives and friends in warmer climate zones - oh, yes, it was -20 out. so very cold. well, not really -20, but it felt like -20! they never had 'feels like' temperature readings where i grew up. sure. at times it feels colder. it's windy. or humid. or something. but.... let's get real people. it cannot be measured!!! can it?

we had this strange, strange day. lack of sleep mixed with lack of eating, producing cranky me and cranky baby. no, no, i ate like a horse, as usual. i eat for two these days - literally! but kaspar was off kilter. i managed to take a 2h nap, when my mom got in from work. i still have a hard time getting over guilty feelings, when i sleep during the day. it just feels so unproductive. but occasionally we have days like this one. sort of a 'write off' day. so, here i sit at 10pm, trying to get a few emails done, a few more hours of work, a few more words... tomorrow steve arrives home from his tour. he'll probably drop off his bags and be off to work within an hour or so. i'm having a studio sale at home on the week-end, so i hope to get more work done in the studio tomorrow. kaspar gets to hang out with his omamma for a day. so goes the life... i feel a little tired and cold and a bit sad. for no reason. just that kind of a day. gray.