Tuesday, January 10, 2006

that sinking feeling...

i've just found out some bad news. and even though i don't want to share the actual news, (sorry to all you, curious folk out there. and for those of you, who might be worried - no, no one died and no one is sick!) i feel like sharing with you that sinking feeling, that hard knot in the bottom of my stomach, the worry caught in my throat... i hope that you will send prayers and good thought for me out into the universe... in fact, i feel better already! sharing sadness is important. just as important as sharing joy!

kaspar has begun to stand on his own, well, relatively speaking. of course, he's holding on for his dear life. sometimes he'll lean on to the toy or a chair or my knee, but he loves it to the point of giggling and laughter, ever time i let go of my hold on him. he still does not sit for more then 30 seconds without falling over, but he can stand for almost the same length of time, as long as he's holding on to something sturdy. he has discovered standing and wants to stand, not sit... so, he does just that. the willpower of this kid! what are we in for a few years down the road? uh.

since our kid seems so determined at such an early age, i thought perhaps letting him read the parenting magazines might just help us out, a little. if you have not noticed - this issue has an article called the "ultimate sleep guide". perhaps the wisdom can be absorbed, somehow? we're still fighting sleep. tonight, since he went to bed, for some reason or another he's been waking up every half hour. i cannot even remember what it feels like to be asleep for more then two hours at a time.

well. it's almost 11:00. i'm calling it a night. steve's done work early tonight, he just got in. i might just have to stick him with some baby time, tonight. just in case you have good advice, don't hesitate to share! but serial just before bed does nothing for my kid! he ate a good half cup of it, tonight, and we have no results whatsoever. patience.... got to remember... patience.... :-)

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Ferberize...call me mean and cold hearted but for everyones sanity...let him howl at the moon for a couple hours...they stop eventually and it can't last more than a few nights...i do suggest a good set of earplugs!

cr

Anonymous said...

First of all, I hope whatever you're worried about resolves itself well.
Then, about the no sleep thing: the bright side is, look at how many things Kaspars is learning every day. Its an awful lot to process, and you can see where it would be hard to settle down at a time like that.
Having said that, I gently, tentatively agree with cr. There comes a time in a lad's life when he should learn to settle himself.
and in the long run it benefits everybody. I did it when my oldest child was about 4 months old, we established a bedtime, and stuck with it.(several days of us sitting downstairs, biting our nails, staring up at the ceiling while the baby screamed for 20 minutes, then 10 minutes, then 5 and in the end it was 30 seconds of obligatory protest, and then sleep.
You certainly might consider it if your lack of sleep is making you occasionally pissed off at Kaspars (which happens to everybody, you don't become a saint during childbirth).A (big)bottle of wine, a take out pizza, a supportive family. It can be done.
My 2 cents

Anonymous said...

beidzot arii kasparinjam ljaavi paspeeleeties ar vinja ziloni. vinjsh izskataas nedaudz sashutis tajaa bildee. vai nu zilonis buus pie vainas, vai arii vinjsh buus izlasiijis kaut ko nepatiikamu. godiigi sakot, neapskauzju to beernu. vinjam vienlaiciigi jaamaacaas seedeet, staaveet un lasiit. mums te latvijaa tagad ir taads populaars jeedziens - indigo beerni. nez vai tas attiecas uz sho gjeeniju?! ;)

Anonymous said...

:(
i hope you are allright!!!
i am sending prayers and good thoughts over to you-
i'm right here if you ever need to talk!

Anonymous said...

Sorry to hear you've had bad news. Sending you full heart wishes.
~ sTeph ps - I have some advice from a friend re sleeping and I've emailed it to you. Her email started with "Ferberize" too. Good luck & take care.

Anonymous said...

Hi Beta,
Boy that kid is growing like a weed in more ways than one. I also agree with the "let him cry himself to sleep" theory. Hard to do for the poor guilt- ridden parents but worth while in the end. You have to think of yourself too dear mommy. You need your sleep as much as he does. Hope you share your troubles with us distant grandparents, we have sympathetic ears and nice soft shoulders. Besides, your worries are keeping us awake!

Love,
Grandpa Gerhard

Anonymous said...

hi, i found your blog via Tania's blog and have really enjoyed reading. i'm the mama of 22 month girl and am of Lativan descent too.

i hope everything works out for you--that sinking feeling is AWFUL.

i wish i had good advice on the sleep issue. i have the unsleepiest baby in all the world! i can't bear to let her 'cry it out'. we go through phases--sometimes she's up all the time, sometimes she sleeps 5 hours in a row. i figure she's only small for a brief time and i'll put up with it for now. althought that is very hard to do when it's the 3rd night in a row of them waking up every 1/2 hour! take a deep breath and try to nap with Kaspars during the day.

hugs!

anita

elizabete said...

hey. thanks everyone for good wishes and good advice! steph - thanks for all your emails :-) now i know what ferberize means! ha. anita - who are you? where are you? very interesting to find people of latvian origin in blogland...